Blue Christmas . . .

Two weeks before Christmas we got the unexpected news that we were pregnant. It was so exciting, but we were fearful knowing our past history and hearing the Dr.'s warnings. We knew we were high risk for miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and just numerous things to go wrong. Well, after two weeks of close monitoring, we found we will be having another miscarriage. No explanation, no reason, no hope. It is always devastating to receive this kind of news, but especially 2 days before Christmas. We managed to enjoy at least some of the holidays with Addie and our families, but we are still hurting very deeply. This has been quite a journey of 3 1/2 years of pain trying to have a second child. We had our first miscarriage in July 2005, followed by an ectopic pregnancy in September 2005 that rendered me unable to conceive again. In July 2006 we tried IVF and it failed, followed by a frozen IVF cycle which failed in February 2007. I had corrective surgery in September 2007, and it has taken us over a year of trying to conceive. Our application for adoption is still open, and we have no idea what will happen next. We had hoped this was the end of this journey, but it is not. . .